Sometimes it’s really hard to write here. I’ve wanted to quit several times. I asked my husband what he thought and he advised me to post when I feel like posting something, but to take the pressure off myself. I talked to trusted friends and explained how my own journey has been difficult the past few months and even though it was related to this blog and what I’m trying to do here, I felt stuck. Frozen. Paralyzed. One friend told me, “That’s exactly WHY you need to get back to it. The enemy wants you to quit. Your story might help someone else and you need to share it.” But I heard rumors of people in my life who didn’t believe my story and were scandalized that I would share something like this so publicly. Up until this point I’ve only shared it in person, and in private prayer request emails. Then my friend Jan came a long.
Jan is an amazing woman. She’s been my Starbucks date for almost a year now and we’ve helped each other process a lot of tough thoughts and feelings in the time we’ve been friends. This was a break through week for her as she began her blog series on Incest-The Poisonous Secret on her Bold & Free Blog. I’m looking forward to reading her thoughts as she tackles this difficult subject. She has a link from her post to a short article called Myths and Facts about Childhood Sexual Abuse by Lucille Zimmerman, the Christian Mental Health Examiner for the Denver Examiner. It’s a great article. Helpful. Informative. Sensitive.
So my journey continues. I’m a writer who has not been writing much to avoid the hard stuff. This topic ties into everything this blog is about. It’s time for me to address this issue more publicly.
Hello.
My name is Niki and I’m a survivor of Childhood Sexual Abuse.
To Be Continued…
April 2, 2009 at 10:19 pm |
Niki, my friend,
Thank you for joining me on this journey. I pray that you will began to see a new level of freedom as you bring what is in the darkness into the light. I feel it, even since I posted.
I am lifting you up in prayer and I appreciate your prayers. It is my prayer that our stories will help other women come into the light as well.
(((((h)))))
Jan
April 7, 2009 at 5:20 pm |
I just read your blog, Incest – The poisonous secret, and Myth and facts about childhood sexual abuse. I am in counciling now and reading these articles – that makes sense. I too will lift you up in prayer, and ask you lift me up in prayer as well. This has been a long road and still going. Thank you for posting this.